It seems so sinful

Ghost of christmas past...

Merry Christmas everyone! (Or happy whatever doesn't offend you...)

I thought it'd be appropriate to post a few pictures from the past. This month I turned 18. I'm an adult! I can drink and smoke and go to bars! Really, I actually haven't done any of that yet... Just doesn't interest me that much, I don't know why.
I feel weird. It's been years since I started my treatment for my depression and it feels like it's been a blink of an eye. Like I've lost years... years that were important and big for everyone else but not me. They just were. And now they're gone. And I have to try and write a new history for myself. I need a future because my past is lost and I'm never ever getting that time back no matter how hard I try. My feelings and days were sucked into a black vaccuum and I never really got to experience them. At least now I feel something. We'll see if that is a bad or a good thing. Sometimes I'm scared and want to go back to the way things used to be.
But there's no turning back now. I have to finish what I've started.

On a happier note I've always loved christmas! I'm a bit weird and I like giving presents more than I like getting them (if only I had money lol)... And I love food so there's another reason :P
But really, christmas doesn't necessarily mean presents or even food, I just love the fact that I get to spend it with people I love and care for. And even though it sounds cheesy, it is really nice.

A blue hat