Welcome to the tea party

Had fun with random acessories and a pink wig:

Omg, I'm finally posting something new -.- I've had quite a difficult week so to say, so I haven't had a chance to post these pictures earlier... I think they're fun though, what do you think?

Life is a flash

Hello everyone! Here are a few of the pictures my grandfather took sometime during 1960-1970's. They're beautiful, are they not?

 And my mum baked these delicious chocolate brownies some time ago... I want to bake something! Here you go, some more pictures.

I'm gonna make an outfit-post soon, now I'm too busy. I hope you can wait! Some more news about my music/demo bussiness coming soon as well.
xxx
-Evan

Long time no posting

Do excuse me for the lack of a proper post, I've been so busy!
I finally got my demo tape from the producer! It includes ten songs all recorded during one day and even though it isn't perfect it's the best I could do at the moment. I've been sending it around and writing more songs and I must say things have been progressing nicely. I cannot put the songs up yet, so only my closest friends have heard them at the moment. But I might be able to put up short trailers later on.
Anyway, I'll be posting some pictures from a photoshoot I did. Here you go!

Narrow streets of cobblestone

Hi!

I haven't updated this blog in a long time, I'm sorry. But the real reason is mainly that there just is nothing to update. The same shit as always.

Nahh, to be honest, I've been better these last few months than I've been in years. I don't know why, but I just haven't been feeling that terrible striking feeling of loneliness and emptiness I've felt before. I don't know if this means I'm seriously getting better. I do doubt it but I'm grateful for this short break. To those who are wondering what I'm talking about I can say that I've been diagnosed chronically depressed a few years ago. I've propably been depressed since being very very young, but nobody noticed because I didn't tell anyone. I never told anybody. But at the end I was almost psychotic (for example I went on a walk one day and just layed in the snow for hours in the middle of a snowy forest and just wished I would die, or intentionally burned my hand) so it became quite obvious. You will propably hear more about these things in my blog in the future, since they are there in my life every day. If someone wants me to tell more details I can do that. I'm not shy about this, but I'm not an attention-whore either. I like to think that maybe someone finds it helpful to talk about this. I've never really liked talking, but I realize it's a way for some people to express their feelings... 

 Or something.

To be honest I've never really thought that I'm depressed, I still don't. I'm just lazy, that's it. If I want to lay in a dark room and never come out, not clean my room, not see my friends, not think, not feel, not go to school, not find a job, not grow up, what else is that except laziness? But for some reason no one believes me when I tell them this.

My philosophy in life is that everything passes eventually. I'm nothing special, you're nothing special. But it isn't a dark point of view to me, it's a calming thought. That I don't have to worry, it will all end one day anyway. And I just think of the Universe and how small and non-excistant we all are and it blows my mind. To think we're so small. But we're still all part of the same system and we're all the same. Yay hippie thoughts!

Erm, anyway...

Well obviously something has happened in my life, but nothing that would interest anyone else. I've had some new friends and they make me happy! School-work takes all my time, and I still haven't uploaded that youtube video I promised. Here, have some crappy web-cam pictures!

XOXOXO- Evan

Sanity is an illusion